This isn't to say you should rid the world of poverty or aids. You don't have to to be the next Oprah and you definitely do not have to fly to a third world country with Angelina and teach kids how to read. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it. You can make a difference. After all, crazier things have happened. Now consider it... Who are you, really?
For me, I'm Lynsay. I like to consider myself a rubix cube that you won't ever figure out completely. Ever since I can remember I've been writing, because I want to remember the things I did then that made me who I am now. It doesn't take me 3 hours to get ready every day like most girls. I think the little things make a difference, not the way you present yourself, physically, in the public eye. There's only one thing I regret in my life but you will not ever know what it is. I live for the summer nights in which I am by the camp fire with family and friends. I play music much too loudly because it takes me away from reality when reality is not the most positive place to be. I love being loved and I love loving, but I do not love easily. My family is crazy and loud but I do not know what I would do without them. I do not know what my religion is. I am an obsessive cleaner, but somehow my room manages to be a disaster at least once per day. Change makes me uncomfortable and with that said, I like to have a handle on things. If I stayed in Uxbridge forever I would be more than happy. I put one song on repeat for hours. I try to make sense of anything and everything. I am annoyingly independent and terribly stubborn. I am inappropriate in social situations, which is why I identify with Chandler Bing. I leave things to the last minute. I make lists about lists. I try to nap at least once per day. I love people that make the best of what they're given and are not afraid to put themselves aside to help another individual in need. I'm a mind full of sarcasm. You might like me, you might not. As it stands right now, there are more important things to worry about than if you accept me or not. I'm just a girl just looking for my place, and learning some valuable lessons along the way.
So what is the lesson here? The lesson is, that there is a time in life when you have to start to think and I don't mean think about what you're gonna wear tomorrow or what school you're going to go to post grad. I do not mean think about numbers on a math test, colours in a rainbow, or the smirk on someones face and what it means. I mean think. Just think and ask yourself .... who am I, really?
You might be brilliant. You might beautiful. And you might be short, tall, fat, or skinny, but do not let that define you because thats nothing in retrospect to who you are as a person.
Do you forgive? Do you forgive too easily? Do you love? Are you loved? Why do you act the way you do? Are you pretending? Are you even listening? Are you looking or seeing? Because there is a difference you know. Who are you? Really?
Do not live your life like a sheep in a herd of Abercrombie wearing clones. Stand out by knowing who you are and turn away from the norm. Don't be numb to the world, take charge of it. The world might sometimes be cruel, but at least you can feel it if you aren't numb to it. I know its nearly impossible to turn away from the flock, but thinking about it is a step, right? Most people just exist, but the people that live are the rarest kinds. And I really think that what most people need to learn in life is how to love people and how to be loved. So please, do not just exist. Do not shut people out even if you think they are being unreasonable, selfish or 'stupid', even though they probably are. Be kind to the unkind, fore they are the ones that need it the most. And most importantly, do not be surprised when people who like you, end up loving you and in turn, end up needing you.
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